Tuesday 25 October 2011

Primary School

Well as i was saying in the previous post ... Primary school wasn't at all the best .... Things were ok like you know your years in R-2 every one were friends and clicks were never there ....

But for me my Grade 3 year was the begining of all the bulling ... Mrs Mahamlal .... My Grade 3 teacher .... She use to throw my books around the class and shout things like " I wasn't good to do anything cause I'm ADD " .... So yeah thing went from bad to worst .... I was in the principles office every two weeks , not cause I was a bad kid but that the teacher (  Mrs Mahamlal  ) made me look like that hectic naughty boy ...

Ever since them people just saw me as a target !!!!

Things got a bit better afer Grade 4 ---- Till Grade 6 ...

Grade 6 was the year many bad things happened to me ... I can't really say but things happened which hurt me for a long time !!! I tried so hard to fit in ... always trying to inpress evryone just for a moment of being noticed !!! that's all i wanted !!!

Well all that " trying to get noticed " never worked ... after that camp .... The bulling went up from 1 or 2 incidents to 5-8 a day !!! My friends also ditched me and turned against me ! But the bullying stopped for a while !! and they started bullying one of the other kids in my Grade 6 class ... Moniqca Shukren ... But I couldnt let them hurt a girl !!! i couldnt bare to see her hurt the way i hurt ... So I became her friend .. and we took the bullying and we had each other to help ....

Grade 7 !!!

Things in Grade 7 wernt fun at all ... i hated going to school ... i hated seeing those people ... then one day !!! they pushed me over the edge ... the pulled my pants down and through water all over me !!!! Infront of the teahers and they did nothing !!!

I called my mother knowing what i was going to do !! but I didnt tell her .... I had to cross a busy road to get home ... so I wanted and planned to throw myself across the street so I could kill myself !! When I got to the road I had worked off all that anger ... and I forgot the plan I wanted to do ... then I got home changed and was playing playstation when my mom walked in ... them we spoke !! and it took forever lol ..  but i dont regret it !!! 

I went for help and to a life coach to build charactor !!! well it worked ... lol

I tried hard not to let those guys hurt me ... I stood up to them and it worked ...

Well thats PRIMARY SCHOOL ...

Monday 24 October 2011

ME !!! SLS :)

Well its almost a year ... in a couple more hours , it would be one year that I have come out to me friends and family that I was gay !!! Well this year was hard ... A lot of challengers I had to over come and as well as the true IDENTITY of myself .... well I really think I need to explain where I've come from and who Simon Lorenzo Stiglingh ( SLS ) is ....

Well I was born on the 14th of December 1992 at 17:00, in Pretoria .... For all you guys that don't know where Pretoria is ... It's in ..... South Africa ... So yeah I'm South African ... Well I lived in Pretoria for about 6 years then we all moved down to the coast -----> DURBAN . Well i had a really good OVERALL time there ....

While I lived in Durban, I was always the one whom to bully by everyone ... it all started in Grade 3 ... things throughout the years were manageable ... BUT Grade 7 .... that year was my hardest ... I had been bullied so much I was suicidale ... I remember that day clearly ... I called my mom saying " I'm over all these guys bulling me " and i was planning to throw myself infront of a car while walking home ... well that never happened ... for some reason I got over the fact that I wanted to kill myself and walked home ... got undressed and sat and played playstation ... My mom rushed home and we spoke of hours ... then I went to go see a LIFE COACH !!! lol well that worked for me ...

HIGHSCHOOL !!!

Well that life coach helped me grow as a person ... and I could stand for myself now .... but there was that same bully that would keep one churping things !!! I was apart if the "POPULAR" crowd but I was there outsider ... but things at highschool were good !! for a while ...

2008 !!!

Well that was the year my whole family lost everything cause of my dad !!! ( to this day I still hate him and I can only tolerate him for so long ) but anyway ... my dad made a deal which went bad and we lost everything !!! So we packed up and drove to Pretoria ... We lived there for a year thats when i found out that i was gay !!! I never told anyone ... I didnt know whom to talk to about this ...

well I'm not going to go in to detail now about the next 3 years in this one post !! lol so this is me so far If you have any questions or want answers ... just comment ! :) NIGHT xXx